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i had to come on and confess…i have fell off the wagon a little…well alot..im so depressed about it..it all began with the beginning of summer..ok no excuse but this is my first summer being 21 and my friends and i have been just going non stop..not so much drinking but everything we are doing is involving eating or drinking it has been terrible..i had a GREAT time but im feeling sluggish and exhausted…i really havent worked out at all besides work in the last 2 weeks because i felt like well i guess i gave up but ill get back on the wagon soon…BAD idea…i was 3 weeks ago around 120-121 consistently i was feeling awesome i still wanted to go down to 115 but i was feeling great there…i think the damage has been up to 124 MAYBE 125…last night i just couldnt stop thinking about how disgusted i have been with myself and how i let myself down by not even working out to counteract the bad eating…what i mean by bad eatings..hot dogs, hamburgers, bread( lots of it!),chips,dips,beers,drinks…anything horrible u can think i was freaking doing…and since my body got used to this crap i come home after work and i have been binging horribly…thats the worst part ill be eat “OKAY” all day then ill come home from work and be like a ravenous pig…its disgusting…today was my first day back to being completely serious about getting down to where i want to be and to get fit again..i ate okay not completely where i was but i cant just cold turkey it…that isnt good either..anyway i had 2 whole what waffles no syrup or nething and apple for breakfast…yogurt and grahm crackers for mid snack( i could have done without the grahm crackers …you will see why..lunch tuna and grapes/strawberries and ofcourse 1 grahm cracker…then i got home from work..had serving of dry cheerios applesauce and 4 egg whites..i still cant control myself wen i get home but its MUCH better then it was..for dinner tonight im just having shrimp and black beans…total calories are 1,200 and i will be going running tonight after dinner and some crunches and weights…its MUCHHH better then i have been doing so its def a step in the right direction..also im getting my period in the next couple of days so hopefully the belly will go down a little =(…sorry so long and rambly i just really needed to get this off my chest and confess this to someone..thanks buddyslim..if u have any tips or pointers let me know!

dont get me wrong ive had a blast! but the drinking and eating hasnt been to my liking…to any of my friends im eating well…but you know when your not eating at YOUR best? i dunno i just feel crappy from the weekend(boyfriends surprise party,bridal shower,not to much working out..) i dunno i was hoping to get back on the wagon today but my body is still wanting to eat crappy i dunno tell me if im crazy or not..

breakfast-kashi puff cereal with soy milk,apple,clementine

coffee with soy milk

snack-these rye flat bread things lol(i ate to many around 150cal) & clementine

lunch-steamed veggies,brown rice, very small salad with vinegar & miso soup(tofu and broth basically)

and i was planning on just having a small snack but now i screwed up everything so im probably done for the night—-heart to heart kashi(dry),2 grahm crackers,clementine,banana…i dont know wut the hell was wrong with me today but tomorrow is a new day..its only 5:30 so if im like dying for something ill have a small salad with vinegar on it

and also def havent lost any weight recently =( im getting upset!

Tuesday 4/27-first day!

breakfast-cheerios with almond milk, blueberries

snack-soy yourt

lunch-leafy greens with cucumbers,carrots,tomatoes,red peppers & vinegar, strawberries.

snack-blackberries,grapes,peanuts

dinner-brown rice, broccoli,asparagus,sm salad w/ balsamic vinegar

snack-chips & salsa( really regret eating that because i wasnt even hungry just bored =/)

after the first day i felt awesome i felt full and satisfied….1,250-1,300 cal

Wednesday 4/28

breakfast-cheerios with almond milk, banana

snack-soy yogurt, blueberries

lunch-veggie burger(no bun), strawberries,apple.

snack-chips & salsa( AGAIN!, i regret even buying those damn vegan chips hahah)

dinner-brown rice, asparagus,small salad with balsamic vinegar, “chicken” patty, & sweet potatoe.

and NO snacks tonight!

1,200 cal

after day 2  i really felt great because i was feeling really good and happy i didnt need to snack at night..and for drinks im drinking small coffee with almond milk and just lotssss of water!

so far today

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after having two days off im back to the crazy nursing world tomorrow grrr lol…but really i am grateful to even have a job so i will not sit here and complain…anyway as for my two days off i did well…better yesterday than today…i worked out alot today but i didnt eat so well..i mostly snacked all day…not on anything bad but not really any “meals”..oh well tomorrow is another day…and tomorrow is really a NEW day for me…im going into overload!…im gonna be switching up my workouts making them longer and harder and will be going 6 days a week now..on the 23rd it will be exactly 6 months until my brothers wedding so i must get going…6 months really is not a long time..i really wanna tone tone tone and lose these last pesky pounds..and another reason ofcourse is summer…it is soooooo soon! im excited but it is def crunch time(literallyy! haha)..anyway so i guess ill let u in on my overload plan…i work 4 days a week( everyother weekend) and at my job i get an awesome workout for 8 hours..between all the walking and lifting and pulling and whatever else.i am going to be sticking to 1,200 calories strict..no wiggle room…my diet will consist of lots of fruits veggies cereal egg whites chicken( the only meat i have left to get rid of) salads , oatmeal, soups, smoothies, yogurt, etc. On the days that i work i am going to work out for only an hour, i still get a great workout in an hour but after an hour i get to tired from working all day so it isnt an effective workout…on my days off i will be doing 2 hour work outs..with working out with 6 days a week now instead of 5 i decided to make each day a certain workout day. This week. Weds-work-30 min cardio, 30 min arms…Thurs-work(but a educational class so not really work lol) 1 hour cardio, 30 min abs, 30 min legs..Fri-work-30 min cardio 15 min arms 15 min abs..Sat- 45 min total body workout class(lucille roberts), 15 min legs. 1 hour cardio…Sun-45 min tummy tuck & butt lift,15 min arms, 15 min abs,30 min sauna….and i will have off monday…so thats just wut this week is going to be like for me…also the big thing for me is no alcohol since im only 21 my friends and i loveee to go out for drinks but i will not be drinking except for the boyfriends birthday next friday other than that its goneeee until memorial day…sorry this is super long and so ramblessss lol…have a great rest of the week everyone! <3

okk so for the last couple months ive been playing around with this in my head and ive wanted to actually to do this but always felt like it was going to be to hard to find things to eat…boyyyy was i wrong…im so excited to do this..now let me tell u this isnt going to be for weightloss..i want to change my way of eating for my HEALTH no other reasons..there are soo many websites and books out there to help but im also looking for some help on buddyslim..really all i want to know is what i should ne buying at the grocery store..i shop at stop & shop and whole foods. the other reason i am doing this is because of animal cruelty because i dont agree with it but that was not my main reason for the change.

finallllly lost 2lbs ugh stupid plateau….7lbs from goal…could take awhile lol…good luck everyone!

breakfast: honey sunshine kashi cereal with fat free milk…regular coffee with a tinyyyy bit of milk and sugar

snack-light& fit vanilla yogurt..2 grahm crackers

lunch-turkey on whole wheat with mustard, apple, special k bar

snack-ww cheese stick

dinner:smart one, cauliflower, & some chips and salsa

calories are about 1175…still i felt like it was too much…but i was really hungry today…also i worked ( im a nurse so i walk and lift ALOT..and i worked out for an hour and half…i dunnooo still feeling crappy about my day for some reason.=(

ok so the summer is almost here with this weather lately i feel like its already upon us…i am so excited to be somewhat confident this summer in my bathing suit i went to florida in the beginning of march and i felt good! i couldnt believe it…anyway i have 3 weddings…july, august and october( the most important one my brothers) i want to look super toned and thin for those…i can not believe i was once 175lbs and im 9lbs away from being 115 my FINAL goal…its weird but not there yet…so im gona be pushing and struggling till one day i can say im maintaining!…love you all!

breakfast-1/2 grapefruit, egg whites(90)

snack-grapes, weight watchers cheese stick(110)

lunch-honey maple turkey on arnolds sandwhich thins, carrots(225)

snack-apple, 4 quaker snacks(75)

dinner-smartone( 280 cal)

780 calories

going out friday night so leaving the rest of the calories for some drinks

i cant believe that i am 2 pounds away from losing 50 pounds since 2008. I still cant believe it happened and i did it without any pills or stupid fads…HOPEFULLY when i weigh in on Monday it will officially be 50 pounds i have lost overall. I am also going to start to train for a marathon..im super excited…my goal is to be able to run a marathon in 6 months. August 2010. I definitely think it can be done…any advice would be greatly appreciated. xoxo